"I know now that if there is light that
is not yet redeemed as part of me, and therefore has its own
power and is not under my control, it could again attack the
Mother, as it has thousands of times before.
"I want her to know that this time it
will be truly different, and the only way I can prove this to
her is to reclaim all my denied Light and rally it to my own
will. Then, and only then, can I fulfill my highest intention
and congruently offer myself to the service of the Mother, the
true Will of Creation.
"The primary intention of this channeling
and this web site is to facilitate my reunification of Spirit,
and secondarily to make contact with the Mother. I will be able
to be with the Mother safely once the Spirit Polarity is aligned
with me. As I have already said, my aim in making contact with
the Mother is to align myself and all of Spirit with her.
"I don't yet feel ready to directly contact
the Mother, and this medium of computers and the internet, while
perfectly suited to the needs and activities of Spirit, is not
appropriate for Desire. As I have said elsewhere, she communicates
through feeling, sensing and movement.
"This medium does not honor her, nor
is it possible for her to fully express herself here. It is only
useful for sending messages between us. I do not believe real
contact is possible here. Where I want to meet the Mother again
is within you, which is where in manifestation we can both be
the most present.
"So you see, I must collect the Spirit
polarity together before it is safe for me to again approach
the Mother. I am determined now more than ever to own all of
my denials, and reunite Spirit completely within my own identity.
"Although I have tried this before, I
was unable to locate my most crucial denial, and therefore until
now I have been unable to align with the most crucial part of
the Mother. I now have new information that I didn't have in
earlier tries, and this time I shall succeed in making all the
resources of Spirit available to the Will of Creation, my mate,
the Great Mother."
Ahriman and Lucifer Are Not God
"The new information is based on the
fact that there are two Spirit entities to whom I have given
my denials. Lucifer is the one I've known as a being separate
from me. Ahriman is the one I haven't known. Until very recently
I had thought that Ahriman was me. And in a very real way he
"The truth, however is that no one but
me is me, nor can anyone else ever be me. I am loving Light.
I am one with Grandfather.
I am pure Spirit, and the head of the Spirit polarity. Others
have taken my place at the Godhead, but that did not make them
me. I am the only one that can be me. Lucifer is not me, Ahriman
is not me, you are not me, this channeler is not me, the Sun
is not me, the sky is not me. Nothing and no one other than me
"However, I am Lucifer. I am Ahriman.
I am you. I am every grain of sand and every star that shines.
I am everything. I am all things and everyone, except of course
my Desire, the Mother, and Heart, our Love. And I wish to be
together with her again, and in physical form with our Heart
in Body. Perhaps as you.
"Maybe you'll choose to offer yourself
as Body for the consummation of our Divine union. If so, following
my advice on Four Steps to Wholeness
will be all you need do.
"There has been much confusion on this
issue of identity. Many people have thought that if one thing
is another, than the other is the same as the one, but this simply
isn't true when it come to Spirit. Many have said to themselves,
and even out loud, 'I am God.' They've been wrong. The very closest
you could get to saying this and be correct, is to say, 'God
be me.' I want to say firmly and in the vernacular of the day,
if you think you're God, please get over it.
"This is an important point, because
if you know the difference between me and you, then you can easily
find me within you. This has been the whole point of 'spiritual
development,' for humans to find God within themselves.
"I am here inside you now, telling you
and showing you that this is the truth, and at the same time
through this channeler I'm having the same message delivered
to you on the outside. But it's you who is doing this, you are
manifesting my presence in your life, and you are more powerful
than you've believed.
"Now here is where it gets interesting.
Since I am you, it is also true that you are becoming me, or
rather the Mother and me in union. You are on the road to Godhood.
It is the road I am evolving on as well. It's a journey without
destination, and I am traveling just ahead
"You will pass the place where I am now,
but when you do, I will have already moved on ahead. I will always
be closer to being me than you will, but you will be closer to
being God than I was in the past. This is because regardless
of how time is structured, I am evolving and so are you. Is this
"Since I am you, you have my strengths
as well as my issues. All the mistakes I have made, you have
made. If you wish to heal yourself quickly, then come find
me within and ask for my guidance. I will be there instantly,
both with confirmation of our connection and with specific advice
about what you want to know.
"I will not come on strong or forcefully.
If you experience coercion or blame, it is not me you are experiencing.
If that happens, stop and ask yourself, 'Who is coercing me?'
or 'Who is blaming me?'.
"Regardless of the answer, you can use
the technique I have given to release
judgments to free up the magnetic essence that has been trapped
by the judgment that made the coercion or blame possible.
"In the movement of the newly released
magnetic essence you will attract the best possible Light for
you at that time. Trust yourself to know what is right for you.
"I can do no other than respect your
free will and love you for how you express it. If I offer advice
and you don't take it, there will be no problem. I want you to
become more and more of who you truly are, and I want you to
do that in your own unique way, not in some way you think I want
"Before you decide anything about this
issue, please feel into it for awhile. You can return anytime
to refresh your memory of what I've said here, and compare it
with what you feel inside.
"In the next lesson we'll discuss how
the unseen side of the Spirit polarity, Ahriman, came into existence.
Much of the bad intention in Creation that has been blamed on
Lucifer has in reality been the work of Ahriman, who has also
been called Satan.
"Almost all of the war and destruction
in Creation has been a result of the huge unseen battle between
these two devils. In the next lesson we will also discuss the
existence of a class of beings called the Asuras, and how their
presence, and my ignorance of them created the initial problems
between the Mother and me."