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Mother's and God's Evolution into Heart Part Five of Six
THE "HIDDEN" REALITY OR THE GOOD BEHIND THE BAD
"Oh, My God, how much I desire now for all of us to huddle up together and experience it all in a synchronized way in a place where the "wrong" is accepted as a healing tool just as the right is, and not judged, but welcomed!
What if I told you that sometimes, the so-called bad things are happening to us as a spontaneous aim for balance, a subconscious attempt to "weed out" an individual's old beliefs and perceptions, so he can be saved from upcoming illnesses or accidents that stem from these old beliefs and perceptions - regardless of whether it's a conscious process or not;
What if I told you that, when one's views of reality, judgments and opinions are getting dangerously old, someone from the outside might need to shake them, shatter their grounds, "operate" on them and even destroy them - to save one's very life; and that, if that reality is not understood and accepted accordingly, it can create a lot of anger, resentment and hatred - which is a danger and entity of its own;
What if I told you that, if one is judging the act of stealing as a crime or moral violation (consciously or subconsciously) his family member or even he himself might be forced into stealing by HIS OWN INNER KNOWING - in an attempt to balance out his attachment to honesty or other moral laws and save him or his loved ones from upcoming problems that are resulting from this attachment and the judgment based on it;
What if I told you that, if one's spouse or friend idealizes the other, the first one may become ill, even terminally ill, while the idealized one may be intuitively drawn to cheat on him or betray him - to save his very life (and be completely unconscious of the real reason for his behavior);
What if I told you that, if a person makes anyone into an idol or center of his life (even subconsciously) this idol may be drawn to do devious acts to "uncrown" himself in this person's eyes - to save his very life; that's when the teacher or spiritual leader might be compelled to "betray" his followers;
What if I told you that, if a couple's ideals and judgments are similar, the two might be forced into separation for no good reason, by "unfortunate circumstances" or "bad people"- because of the danger of synchronization;
What if I told you that, if people made morality their God, they might be forced into immoral acts by their own Desire, their own subconscious - to balance out that idolatry and save their very lives - which usually happens without the light of understanding and acceptance and creates plenty of guilt;
Would the revealing of these unseen realities help you not to judge your "bad" desires as bad even if you don't understand yet where they're coming from and what their aim is? Would it help you to TRUST your DESIRE as KNOWING the "game" a few moves before your consciousness does? Are you ready to see that sometimes there is love behind "violation?" That many sufferings could be prevented if these crimes and violations were not be judged as bad and/or identified with?
Are you ready to see that all it takes for the "bad" to become good is for you to see it as such? That all it takes for a "bad war" to become a "good war" is for you to see it and receive it as good - AND YOU MIGHT NOT NEED A WAR AFTER ALL?! Are you ready to accept a small conflict as a beginning of a great peace and friendship? Are you ready to experience the "bad" as good?
What if I told you that,
To mature out of these gods of ideals and morals, one might require to be theoretically willing and able to commit all these "crimes" without judging them as bad or identifying with them - only now in the presence of one's loving consciousness. If these crimes, "wrong" desires and impulses are lovingly acknowledged, understood for what they are , looked at, thoroughly felt, observed, expressed (privately or through the arts) and accepted as valid and real, THEY WON'T NEED TO BE ACTED OUT! They become ENLIGHTENED by you and their power becomes your light!
What if I told you that if you are helping people to recover from various problems and illnesses without their understanding the process of this healing and without them changing their views of reality, if you only heal the sickness, but not the cause of the sickness, if you only heal the visible, but not the hidden, emotional subconscious matters and roots of disease - causing the illness only to "hide" deeper within and erode the person's deeper inner planes without him knowing and feeling it - you might be taking your "patient's" illnesses upon yourself or your posterity or even upon your unborn children! And your "healed" patient might be heading towards a much greater problem that he started with!
What if I told you that, if one is trying to help or "heal" someone whose inner planes are greater than the healer's, he might "inherit" his patient's perceptions, and attachments (in the form of illnesses or entities) of a much greater scale than the "healer" is prepared for and able to handle at the present stage of his development - he might be killing himself or his loved ones - instead of helping someone;
What if I told you that, if one is elevating his own pain and sickness only on the body/mind level - he might be dumping it all into his subconscious (into Mother inside him) - without having his consciousness feeling and learning anything from that pain and illness and thus, lowering its ability to protect him and prevent the illness from spreading into deeper layers of his being;
What if I told you that some of the so-called evolved, "enlightened" beings may actually live at the expense of not only their disowned Wills, but also at the expense of their unmanifested children or their students and followers;
What if I told you that, sometimes those who look like angels are responsible for crimes the scale of which you can't even imagine;
What if I told you that, old Gods, out-dated perceptions and views of reality, along with suppressed emotions and impulses may manifest themselves as illnesses, vicious spirits and entities or "dark spots" on an individual's aura, that can spiritually posses him, run his life for him, destroy him -and destroy THROUGH HIM!
What if I told you that, people (especially children) or animals can react to this spirits (sometimes harshly, to the extreme), mistakenly identifying them with those holding them, taking the one who is possessing for the one who is possessed; and the only way to stop their unfriendly reaction is to privately work out the "negative" emotions and change, update, upgrade, elevate one's views of reality;
What if I told you that, one may attract or be attracted to certain types of people or events that will repeatedly irritate, stir that same place, some "dark spot" in him so that he can eventually become aware of it and "bubble" it out through expressing his emotions and acquiring a new understandings;
What if I told you that, if one is attacking the other with his thoughts, these thoughts can actually damage and kill - more so now, when an individual's energetics are much more potent than they were only a few years ago. And not only can it reach and damage the victim - it can also be reflected from the "mirror" of his protective bio-energetic field (or aura), turn back to the offender, attack him with the power equal to the one that was sent; many people had actually killed themselves that way;
What if I told you that, if you deny, repress, condemn, judge and send away your own impulses to kill, steal, rape or avenge - your own child or family member, or someone from the street, or even your national leader may just act it out for you;
What if I told you that, if one doesn't let go of his Old Light, old perceptions and old views of reality and refuse to replace them with newer, more wholesome Light, it might be forced upon him by the upcoming transformational difficulties, or else they might erase him from the face of the Earth;
What if I told you that, when people can't easily let go of the old God, entire nations may be forced to become atheists - so that they can be saved from extinction;
What if I don't tell you anything but
IT ALL HAPPENS ANYWAY, ONLY WITHOUT YOUR AWARENESS?
When the Old Light, old judgments and perceptions can't sustain you anymore - they must be shed like an old skin or they might start the decaying process of death - and attract illnesses, accidents and other unforeseen problems. At the same time they might be your awakening calls - to search for New, more wholesome Light of knowledge and perception that will heal and guard you - until the next time. So,
Are you ready to let go of the Old God, the Old Consciousness?
Are you ready to let go of morals, principles, concepts, rules and regulations, ideals and idols as your God"?
Are you ready to let go of "almost God" values such as righteousness, justice, perfection, principles, rules, order, discipline, control, honesty, integrity, loyalty, dignity, nobility, excellence, honor, success, power, peace and other "almost God" virtues - so that while you're striving for them, you don't bow to them or attach to them as your God and so that if Mama calls for it, they can be violated at any time without hesitation or doubts?
Are you terrified to let go of the Ten Commandments as your God?
Are morals and principles God?
Whom do you like to be your God NOW - morals or Love?
Who is God for you? - God that is speaking or God that spoke? God that is or God that was?
Which God do you wish to listen to now - the One that is scolding you or the One that is accepting you with all your "imperfections?" The One that is judging you as a sinner or the One that is now giving you back the memory and the knowledge that you have an absolutely valid reason to be the way you are?
Are you ready to let go of the old judging God and meet a New, loving, evolved, expanded God?
If yes, then let's go.
LET THE NEW GOD IN
Let's dance together. You are there and I am here. Let's dance our distance away. Please don't think of yourself as small or unworthy - I want to dance with you - do you hear Me? It's Me, God is talking to you now. The only quality I require to dance with Me is your Desire to dance with Me. Would you please, now? May I? Here we go...Dance with Me...Move love, move.....
GOD IS DANCING WITH YOU... MOVE, FEEL
Are you dancing? Move... Here we go... That's it... Beautiful... So, you're saying you're ready to let go of The Me of yesterday..... And you are ready to accept and embrace THE ME OF TODAY.... That's great, it's beautiful..... I love it! Dance, love, dance.... I missed you too, when you were dancing with the Me of yesterday. And I was all alone.... Please, catch up with Me every day, I'm changing and expanding every moment....
Don't look for Me into the past and its frozen images of Me. If you're twenty years old, you wouldn't want someone longing for and seeking the two-year-old you and ignoring the present you, the grown-up you, the evolved you! You wouldn't want someone only loving your photograph and not you - would you?
So why are you only relating to THE ME OF THE PAST and ignoring THE ME OF THE PRESENT? Why are you only talking to My "photographs" and not Me - the evolved Me, the "grown-up" Me, the expanded Me?
DON'T TURN AROUND, I'M NOT THERE, I'M RIGHT HERE, STANDING IN FRONT OF YOU AND LONGING FOR YOU TO SEE ME AND FEEL ME! I WANT TO SPEAK TO YOU AND BE HEARD BY YOU! Do you feel what I feel now? Feel it!
I WANT YOU TO TALK TO ME - NOT TO MY SHADOWS!
I WANT YOU TO LOOK AT ME - NOT AT MY FROZEN IMAGES!
I WANT YOU TO MAKE LOVE WITH ME - NOT WITH MY "PHOTOGRAPHS!"
<< RELATE TO THE ME OF TODAY - NOT THE ME OF YESTERDAY!>>
Make Love to Me, move....You are...so.....beautiful.............to Me......I love every "imperfection" in you.....I love even your brokenness......Your "imperfections" are more perfect to Me than the perfection itself. Your "yukkiest" flaws, frailties, weaknesses, shortcomings, drawbacks are so precious to ME.... Your courage to even hold them amazes Me! Sometimes I'm overwhelmed by the feelings of love and marvel when I see your frail, brittle bravery, this vulnerable, shivery courage of yours to carry on with all your brokenness, wretchedness, deformity, distortion, agony, grief and gloom.............and not die and escape.... This striking, stunning, astonishing power of the weakness in you.... Please accept it and love it within yourself as I do, and soon you will see the infinite wisdom behind each "imperfection" you are carrying.
PERFECTION IS "PERFECTION." REAL PERFECTION INCLUDES "IMPERFECTION"
INSIDE ITSELF AND CELEBRATES IT.
There is nothing to be ashamed of, NO THING. You are innocent and you are perfect. You are trying to carry Both of Us, Mother and Father in you and you feel OUR feelings and OUR confusions and OUR shortcomings of the past. Hang on, Love, it's not just a pain, it's a labor of Love!... Feel and experience it all, but don't identify with it. You are Both, therefore you are a HEART, a LOVE we are all missing so much. Mother and I are longing to become One - inside you. Stand firm, Love. Take care of Mother in you. You will only need to bear it for some time now. Soon, I will be right here with You and in you - all of Me.... Will you take ALL OF ME?
As you progress with your emotional movement, your reception of Me (or Us) will be clearer and clearer. I will help you now. Stay tuned....
...Dance, don't stop... ...turn the page... I'll teach you the MOVING STEPS...
Are you dancing? Move love, move! That's it... Beautiful. Listen... Listen to Me now. You've been asking for clear directions. I'll give you clear directions. Only listen carefully... It's so easy that it seems hard. It's like trying to explain how your eyes blink. Move love, don't stop... Listen. When you relate to Me, do it as if I were standing right in front of you, as if I were your spouse or a friend. And then direct your attention inside yourself and access and feel that pain, that discomfort, or whatever is "bothering" you, feel it as deeply and thoroughly as you possibly can. DO NOT GO INTO YOUR THOUGHTS - GO INTO YOUR FEELINGS AND SENSATIONS INSTEAD!
DON'T THINK IT - FEEL IT !!!
And sound it! If you were angry with your spouse, would you be able to make love with him or her before expressing how you feel? Same here. You can't love Me the way I know you can until you express all your discontent. And guess what - I'm ready to take it, like a real lover would!.... So, here - I'm your spouse now, go ahead and have a fight with Me - and feel good about it! Like you're building something, not destroying! The attitude is: we are loving each other and we are helping each other to evolve; we are not denying our emotions, we are working them out; we welcome conflicts and expression of emotions as a part of our healing processes and evolution and we accepting fights as emotional aerobics and it's OK by us to have a fight! A CONFLICT OR A FIGHT DOES NOT NEGATE OUR LOVE - IT PURIFIES IT!
WE ACCEPT DISSONANCE AS PART OF OUR HARMONY
If your present problems are not throwing you into your emotions, if you feel numb and frozen - go into your past, find these feelings and emotions there and experience them again - ONLY WITH ME NOW, consciously (you can even use movies or music to bring your emotions up). Experience them willingly, invitingly, celebrate them no matter how ugly or unwanted they seem to you.
They are all beautiful to Me now.... Go inside your pain or discomfort (emotional or physical), feel and see its shape, color, heat, intensity, sharpness, dullness, location, vibration - anything or everything! Now, - if that pain or whatever you feel would have a language of its own, how would that pain sound? Talk its language - give Me that sound! "Compose" it!
Remember, it's the Mother who is trying to reach Me through you and be accepted and Enlightened by Me - so GIVE HER TO ME! Give Me your feelings no matter how unappealing or out of sorts they seem to you. Imagine for a moment that you are a psychiatric patient (no judgment, please!) but now you are in a very special, new kind of "clinic" where instead of shutting down your impulses, you are welcomed to express them in any and every way that THEY ARE! You are allowed to act out the "craziest" sounds and movements you can imagine - without fearing being criticized or judged in any way!
YOU DON'T NEED ANYBODY'S APPROVAL FOR IT - NOT EVEN YOUR OWN CONSCIOUSNESS'! Play a kid, an infant! Go nuts! Allow and accept lovingly and full heartedly EVERYTHING that comes up , as I do now, DON'T DARE JUDGE THESE FEELINGS - THEY ARE MY WIFE! ....I wish you would play this game every day - so I can meet and heal and hold Her in My arms every day....
YOUR EXPRESSIONS - LOVE OR HATE - ARE TEACHING ME SOMETHING ABOUT MOTHER AND YOU, HEART. I NEED TO HEAR THEM TO EVOLVE!
Or you can also be creative about it, you can put on music that is most descriptive of how you feel, turn up the volume and talk, sing and scream your emotions with it to Me. It can be rock, rap, heavy metal, black gospel - anything that helps you to activate and express your feelings UN-BEAUTIFIED. You can also be really explicit with your movements, you can make all the improper, impolite, "forbidden" movements you feel like doing.
If you feel angry - directly at Me or THROUGH PEOPLE - tell Me just how angry you are. Tell me like it is, don't be intimidated. Yes, you can tell Me how you hate Me, if you feel so, but, most importantly, tell Me HOW THAT HATE FEELS! And so for all the other feelings you have. Tell me straight, don't be afraid - I can handle it! Not only can I handle it - I CAN ENLIGHTEN IT and I can give you a new Light and livelihood instead. Don't give it to people who are "causing" it - give it to ME! If you give it to people, you may "adopt" their problems - only I can give you Light instead.
So, are you ready now? Tell Me openly and honestly how it feels to be in pain, in fear, rejected, unloved and unwanted..... Get emotional, get intimate with Me, move Me with your cries! Let Me know how it feels and sounds! I will hold you in My arms! Give it all to Me now, will you! Give me your anger, resentment, fear, terror, hopelessness, disgust, emotional or sexual frustration, any pain and any discomfort! Make Me feel it, FEEL-IT-TO-ME! - Now! You can say; God I hate feeling this, I resent it and I hate You, and I hate everything! It feels like.........? ....like what!!?
Give Me the sound.... the beastly sounds.....and the body movements.......the words are secondary.... I want your feelings - not your words! OPEN UP TO ME, give it to Me - now! - Scream it, growl it, moan it, groan it, cry it, hiss it, howl it, sing it, dance it, play it, drum it, tap it, jump it, fall it, shake it, trance it, love-it-to-Me! Go hysterical, cry to Me like a little baby, an infant... I'll hold you in My arms.....Give it to Me... Now!
Move, My Love, move, you're doing beautifully, soon you will know for yourself just how beautifully....
YOUR EXPRESSIONS - LOVE OR HATE - ARE TEACHING ME SOMETHING ABOUT MOTHER AND YOU, HEART. I NEED TO HEAR THEM TO EVOLVE!
YOUR FAVORITE SONGS ARE YOUR BEST PRAYERS
Dear Heart! Your Earthly songs and dances are really a prayers and expression of Mother in you.
Sing, dance, make love - as on expression and elevation of Mother to Me, as an arising of Kundalini to Consciousness, as your most wholesome and genuine prayer.
Listen to what is trying to burst out of you!
Sing your concerns to Me
Sing your desires to Me
Sing your feelings to Me
Sing your sensations to Me
Sing your longings to Me
Sing your resentments to Me
Sing your pain to Me
Sing your love to Me.
Sing it, dance it, drum it, babble it, - gibberish it to Me!
YOUR EXPRESSIONS - LOVE OR HATE - ARE TEACHING ME SOMETHING ABOUT MOTHER AND YOU, HEART. I NEED TO HEAR THEM TO EVOLVE!
I CANNOT GIVE YOU ANYTHING IF YOU ARE NOT EMPTY
It's like trying to pour liquid into a full glass. Remember, that love - DIRECTLY TO ME OR THROUGH PEOPLE - brings salvation but it cannot be "poured" into you and accumulated if your "vessel" is full of aggression (passive or active, chronic or acute, conscious or subconscious). If you try to "squeeze" love on top of aggression you might get a "crooked" love. The right sequence is: empty yourself of your discontent first and only then open to receive and accumulate love. So go ahead, empty yourself of your old emotions - routinely and regularly - and give them to Me SO I CAN GIVE YOU MY HELP INSTEAD. I need your emotions to be materialized into sounds and movements to be able to help you - words alone cannot do it! I need to know how you feel, every nuance of it, don't just assume, that I, God, am supposed to know everything. I only know what I know, the rest YOU tell Me! I know the Knowledge - you have the Feelings, give Me the Feelings, I'll give you the Knowledge instead.... I need you just as much as you need Me! YOUR FEELINGS ARE MY MATE, remember? - so give them to Me!
You've been asking for practical advice? I'll give it to you. Keep asking. And keep your ears and senses open...
TO ACT AND ACT IT OUT ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS
A license to express is not a license to ventilate your anger directly at your offenders (or not yet) no matter how right you are. You will be able to do it only when you become "depolarized" of either physicality and spirituality and their values and you won't accumulate aggression by defending them or by trying to follow their rules. That alone can have a love-producing effect on you. You will start to accumulate love inside yourself and that love behind your emotion will be felt (consciously or subconsciously) by your opponent and will change his reaction to it from destructive to constructive.
The amount of Love or aggression that you possess can greatly alter people's and nature's attitude towards you, it can affect the chemistry of your relationships with them and even affect their behavior in your presence. Even electronics can react to it. People working in NASA know very well how their sensitive computers react to each person differently and behave "unusually" when a strange user operates them. Sometimes it is possible to "fix" some home electronics like TV or VCR just by reducing the level of their owners' aggression by giving it expression and acceptance.
You cannot yet express strong emotion directly to people also because it was suppressed for so long and it became so thick and dangerous, that it might just take over you and be very destructive. These first clots of condensed emotions, especially rage, may become a very strong entity inside yourself, harboring itself and waiting for a perfect moment to take you over and to MAKE YOU PERFORM ITS AGENDA - it's easy to end up in jail, which may not exactly serve your purpose here.
Your conscious needs to really show it's validity and cleverness by finding ways of expression that are safe and most suitable for you by directing and transporting it into something constructive and even enjoyable. Keep asking your mind to find out for you how and where to express your emotions in most practical and beneficial ways. Do it the way you like it; dance it, sing it, "heavy-metal-it", act it, "rap" it, make a comedy of it - BUT NOW DO IT CONSCIOUSLY! ...They call it a "folk medicine"....
THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN EXPRESSING RAGE AND ACTING IT OUT!
When triggered, don't go past your emotions; instead, go ahead and get irritated or sad or angry or whatever, if you feel like it, but watch out - don't identify with it! Play out your anger, like an actor in a movie, and watch yourself doing it! ACT IT BUT DON'T BECOME IT! Do it while witnessing it and know that A GOOD THING IS HAPPENING!
You are probably doing it unconsciously anyway, so you don't even need to learn it! THE ONLY THING TO DO HERE IS TO BECOME AWARE OF YOURSELF DOING IT!!! It's so easy, it's sounds complicated only when said! Just remember - the point is not to be angry or whatever, the point is WATCHING YOURSELF BEING angry or whatever.
The point is for your consciousness to accept the emotion (the subconsciousness) AS GOOD - regardless of its positive or negative charge! The point is to express and accept what you express - lovingly! Because EMOTION is NEITHER BAD NOR GOOD - IT simply IS! So take it AS it IS! Feel it, welcome it, respond to it and LOVE IT! Enjoy it like a movie!
A COUPLE OF WORDS TO RAGE
Those who are possessed by rage, talk to your rage and say it like this:
If you are rage you will be confronted by rage;
If you torture you will be tortured -
By your own tools you designed for others;
If you devour you will be devoured;
If you feed on others you will be fed upon;
If you enslave you will be enslaved;
If you choose to be power you'll be consumed by greater power,
You will fall into your own pit-hole that you dug for others,
You will be poisoned by your own bait,
You will burn in your own bonfire you prepared for Love.
Every power has its end. Every power has another, greater power to devour it;
Every powerful lion has another powerful lion to take over when it gets older and weaker;
There will be always bigger rage than you;
Every rage will be zapped by its own rage;
Every rage will be attacked by its own reflection;
It will be reflected right back on you like a mirror reflection of you;
You can't be winner for long, all your victories are temporary, and you'll never be satisfied by them;
You can never be satisfied by anything, and you will always aim and reach for more, until you fall into abyss of the Black Void;
Don't you see, you can't win for more than five minutes, there will be always a bigger rage to haunt you;
If you won't become Love you'll be nothingness, you will vanish, you will be no more, you'll lose your soul, you'll be devoured by greater rage than you and that last rage will zap itself with its own reflection and will burn in much more "hellish" hell than it itself created;
You almost blew your chance; As it is you almost have to dye to recover from what you are but you'll probably postpone it even more anyway until you have no time left at all, and time is almost up for you; make that choice - now! - or you will have no choice;
You will be thrown into brutal Space for eternity with no one to torture but yourself; and so be it;
MOTHER: YOU THINK, I SAY "NO" TO RAGE? WRONG! I SAY "YES" TO RAGE!
My gun is loaded with your bullets and Your own rage that You implanted in Me is driving Me when I need it, and It has plenty of explosive power that will be enough to do what I need to do to save and empower Love - and to zap you into a " zombie" and to blow You out of existence if You are not with Me!
GOD: MAN TO MAN
You think, I say "no" to Rage? Wrong! I say "yes" to Rage! I'm going to fuck the Mother with It so good, (with such ragefull passion!) and for so long, that if You are not with Me, You are going to explode into pieces from envy and jealousy just hearing Mother moaning and groaning (with Me!) from Joy and Ecstasy! With such loving rage! With such raging passion!
YOU THINK, I SAY "NO" TO RAGE? WRONG! I SAY "YES" TO RAGE -- TO SERVE MY WILL!!!
YOU DON'T NEED TO BECOME RAGES' SLAVE AND FOLLOW ITS ORDERS
Rage is Lucifer, rage is Ahriman. Don't identify with it. Yes, YOU MIGHT BE POSSESSED BY IT BUT YOU ARE NOT IT. You can depossess yourself from it and become your own self and your own commander and THEY WON'T BE ABLE TO DO THEIR "JOB" THROUGH YOU! You don't need a personal or global war to figure out the differences with your surroundings. If you discharge rage and hatred out of you, you'll see without the veil that this rage put upon your eyes and you'll see everything as it is, not as They want you to see it. IF YOU ARE POSSESSED YOU CAN BE DEPOSSESSED! HURRY!
End of Part Five. All six parts should be read consecutively and as a whole to have a healing effect.
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