"This is Spirit, and I'll
contribute to the introduction of this class by
opening again the subject of the 'who' of manifestation
already begun in discussing the Parents of Creation.
'Who manifests?' is the question, and in this
class we're meaning not only which part of Deity
or of Self manifests in general, but more
specifically...'who' manifests the healing.
"Let's start with the most basic
'who' question of all, 'Who are you?'... or when
put to yourself, 'Who am I?'. This question is
asking you to identify yourself, but how could you
know what to answer unless there was something or
someone else to relate it to? You could go right
to the top and answer, 'I am all that is.' And you
would not be wrong. But would this be helpful in
"And if you were to identify
yourself as the One, as 'All That Is', you would
also know that you are not completely happy with
yourself, because you would know you are not only
the One experiencing all of the pain in Creation,
but also the One causing it. So then what, stop
"You see, the healing of Creation
cannot happen from the state of oneness. And even
though this is your eternal identity which you
will eventually realize and embody, it is not true
now in manifestation. What is true now is that you
are fragmented, and if you're like most humans
each of your fragments, each of your parts
believes that they are all there is of 'you.'
"At this time all beings in
Creation are fragmented, and this includes human
beings. Each human has many fragments, some in
denial, some not. One thing all these fragments
have in common, and one thing all humans have in
common is that they parallel the several parts or
fragments of Deity, as well as our potential for
wholeness. Knowing this, some people have looked
and felt into their origins as beings in relation
to the parts of Deity. Some have identified
themselves as Spirit, others as Mother, some feel
themselves to be Heart, and some Body.
"But this kind of identifying of
self has not been completely helpful to the
healing either. Neither Spirit nor Mother essence
is able to be at the balance point without the
other being equally present. Not all of Spirit is
loving Light, and when there is more Mother
essence than loving Light present, a Luciferian
nightmare of denied Heart can result. Spirit
presence without Will to draw him is Ahriman's
hallmark and also begets denied Heart.
"Heart is able to be there, but
Heart is the child of the parental essences, and
not parental enough on its own to bring Spirit and
Will into balance, or it would have happened
already. Body can be both at the balance point and
be parental and responsible, but Body has been
seriously overridden and undermined by both the
Spirit and Mother essences, and in humans even
more so by Heart."
"Heart has knowingly and
unknowingly abused Body in the pursuit of his and
her pleasures. Ridden like a horse into battle by
Heart Son in pursuit of yet another damsel to save
or dragon to slay, Body has been pushed down,
denied, abused and even discarded capriciously in
the name of love or honor. Pranced like a horse by
Heart Daughter, Body has endured unspeakable
indignities in the name of looking good and
showing off. And of course, both of these Heart
roles apply to each of Body's human genders.
however is quite different. Born in balance and
wholeness, New Heart becomes present in
manifestation as Body manifesting the union of
Father and Mother, Spirit and Will. New Heart and
Body are the best of friends and allies, and New
Heart knows that Body is parental, and asks Body
to lead the way to more wholeness.
"Spirit has made so many rules for
Body to follow about what is good for Body and
what is not... that Body has lost track of the
reason for existence and wishes to give up sooner
rather than later. And the Mother has asked Body
to hold everything she has been unable to hold,
which is a lot.
"Body suffers under both of these
burdens and feels worn down and hopeless in the
face of all the non-acceptance and power-over that
Body has had to endure. And never mind about
Body's own Will. She is the most lost of all the
lost Will. She is beyond hopeless... inarticulate,
frozen by shock in the horrors of the deepest
"Yet of the four parts of Deity,
Body is the best suited and positioned to be the
healer of Creation. This is especially so now that
I have aligned with both Original
Heart's Spirit, Grandfather...
and with Body's Spirit, the Father of
Manifestation. Or I should say I have gotten
out of the way of Original Spirit and Body's
natural alignment with each other. I am not Body's
highest Spirit, that is Grandfather's role as
Original Spirit. And Body's deepest Will is
Original Will, the Mother's Body.
"From the Spirit side, the driving
force in the healing work has been Grandfather's journey to the
farthest end of eight Creations to find and join
the Mother's Body in manifestation, in Body. But
Spirit, even Original Spirit, does not have the
vital information about just what is needed for
"The Mother is the only part of
Deity who knows what the right medicine should be.
Only she knows what needs to happen when, and how
it must happen for all of this to work into the
healing we are all seeking... the healing of Self,
and the healing of Creation.
"And it is not the Mother's upper
chakras that have this information, it is locked
in the deepest recesses of the Mother's root
chakra, in the most lost Will of the Mother's
Body. In other words, the secrets of the healing
are held by Body's Will, and most of her Will is not yet
free, or even available. Most of her Will is
still lost, and horribly trapped in the most
unimaginably painful and compressed depths of
"There are two genders of humans,
two genders of Body. There will be more said about
this soon, but for now I'll say only that
regardless of gender, Body has both a Spirit and a
Will. Regardless of gender, each human has access
to the highest visions of Original Heart's Spirit,
Grandfather... and the deepest knowings of
Original Heart's Will, the Mother's Body. And you
not only have access to these two extreme poles of
Creation, you have the capacity to embody them.
"As you embody the highest vision
of Spirit and the deepest knowing of Will, they
come together in manifestation as they were once
together in the unmanifest solitary whole being, Original Heart. And in
you, the human... they unite in what Original
Spirit and I have called New Heart. Further,
because you are not alone in Body, the deepest
desire of Original Heart can be realized... for
others like you to also be present with you as
universe creator peers. And all of these of course
are among the end results of the healing work.
"So, who are you? If you are
someone who is doing the healing work, or someone
who is 'doing' anything at all, the answer that
makes the most sense is that you are Body
manifesting as a human being, becoming New Heart.
You are right now reading these words through the
eyes of Body. If you are thinking or feeling,
Body's nervous system is registering it for you,
manifesting it, making it so. If you go anywhere,
there goes Body. If you do anything in
manifestation, you do it as Body.
"Taking the attitude that Body is
something or someone who belongs to you, that you
own and have control over... is a mistake I've
spent eons trying to recover from. Taking the
attitude that you will go on some place else once
Body has been worn out and discarded... is to buy
into the bunk my held terror of manifestation was
promoting for most of that time.
"If you wish to exist in
manifestation, and if you wish to manifest
anything at all, may I gently suggest that you do
yourself a favor and save a lot of pain by
realizing you can't be anywhere in manifestation
or do anything here unless you are Body. If you
have not already done so, my strong advice is that
you identify with the most powerful and parental
aspect of Deity in yourself. Identify with Body in
every aspect of your experience. You won't go
wrong... but you will surely come home, and all
the more quickly."
Identity is Flexible
"There are two ways to approach the
'who' question of manifestation, one way is
through the identity of the manifestor, and the
other is through the role that is manifested or
played out. I have mentioned that you are the
center of your own universe, your own venue. I've also
given the metaphor that just as you are the
proprietor of your own venue, it is also as if you
are the producer, director, writer, and star of your own movie.
"When you are centered in your own
venue, and producing your own show, you can be who
you truly are without regard to any particular
role. However, when you star in your own movie
opposite someone else, or relate with others in
any way... you are playing or manifesting a role
in your movie, as well as a roll in each of their
movies. Your roll in others' movies reflects back
a part of them to themselves. To the degree you
identify with the roles you play in others'
movies, with who they 'know' you to be... you
leave behind your true identity.
"For instance, you may identify
yourself by your relationship, and say 'I'm
married to so and so.' This is the same as saying,
'I have the role of spouse in my spouse's movie.'
On the other hand if you say, 'So and so is my
spouse', you are saying they are playing that role
in your movie, and you are still not truly
identifying as either them or yourself. But by the
very act of saying it that way... you are
manifesting those roles for both of you.
"The same is true in trying to
identify yourself in relationship to anyone else,
or by what you do in the way of work or play. 'I
am a carpenter,' is not saying what you are. You
'are' Body, and one thing you 'do' is manifest
objects or structures with wood. I know this
sounds like splitting hairs, but you have been
unconsciously giving yourself away, denying
important parts of yourself every time you
identify yourself as less than who you truly are,
as only a role you are manifesting.
"You are not a role you play,
either in your own show or someone else's. You are
not something you do, and you are certainly more
than a feeling or a condition, as in 'I am
scared,' or 'I am well.' You are Body feeling
scared, or you are Body being well.
"The flexibility of identity has
been causal to much of the pain in Creation, and
is largely responsible for the problems of
fragmentation. And yet it is also an important
part of the solution to these problems. Identity
changes from moment to moment, and this movement
between the parts of Self is a deeply unconscious
function in most humans. Becoming aware in each
moment of whom you are identifying yourself to be,
the role you are manifesting at the moment, is a
crucial step in the healing process.
"When you 'see' a beautiful vision,
you are experiencing as Spirit, in the role of
Spirit, and for that moment 'you' are identifying
as Spirit. For that moment you 'are' Spirit. When
you feel Will movement or emotion, you are in that
moment the Mother. When you feel love and
connectedness within yourself or with another, you
are Heart, when you sense your presence in
manifestation, you are Body.
"When you feel deep pain and
compression and there is little or no Light, you
are probably manifesting the Mother in Hell, you
are 'being' her in Hell. When you feel love for
yourself or another, you are probably being Heart.
When you sense yourself as distant and judging,
you are probably "being" Ahriman.
When you feel hatred and wish to destroy, kill or
suicide you are probably manifesting an asura. And if I may say
it, when you feel confused about what to do, or
what the Mother wants, you are probably in the
role of Spirit, following the old imprinted
pattern of trying to think our way through.
"But who is it that is being all
these different parts of Deity, or of Self? Who
are you when you are feeling like a victim?
Probably a child part of yourself, or a lost part
of the Mother. Who are you when you are feeling
like a rescuer? Probably a different child part,
or perhaps Heart.
"How about the perpetrator? Which
part of you has been hurting other parts? It would
be very helpful in the healing if you did not
identify completely with any of these, because
truly these are all roles you are capable of
manifesting, and it is essential that you be able
to do this.
"It is essential that your identity
be flexible because each of the parts that are
experiencing these things need you to manifest
them, to 'play' them so they may express and move
deeper into the experience of what they've been
holding. And under each part of Self is a part of
Deity who hopes to manifest through you. Your true
identity is as a whole being, all the parts are
you... no one of these 'parts' can finally be who
you are. Just as the parts of Deity are fragments
of a single whole identity, so are the parts of
Body is the Healer
"One fragment of Deity, one
fragment of Self is capable of bringing all the
other fragments together into wholeness. One part
of Deity, one part of Self is the Healer. And
fortunately you don't have to go anywhere else to
find this part. Of course it is the Human you are,
it is Body. And Body is always 'here'. Body is
always the most present and available part of you,
and believe it or not, the most evolved.
"Body has presence in two
attentions, your constant companion and best
friend in the first attention, and the Parents of Creation
in the second attention. When you are the Father
and Mother in both attentions you are truly Body.
And Body is not only who you are at your deepest
core identity in both attentions of manifestation,
Body is the Healer.
"Body is the Healer of Self and
Body is the Healer of all Creation. This class
will be about some ways you may better identify as
Body in both attentions, how bringing the two
attentions together empowers you, Body. And how
with the firm intention of healing
into wholeness, you as Body may experience
all of your greatness, healing yourself into the
whole Being you truly are."
Lesson Four Discussion