"This is Original Spirit,
and I wish to say some things to
introduce this class. I'll begin by thanking the Spirit of this
Creation for helping bring me here. And of course I am deeply
indebted to the Mother for her persistence in drawing me forth into
this Creation. Thank you again, my love.
"The Mother has recently recovered enough of
her parental essence in this Creation to remember back before the original explosion, to the wondrous
state of complete union that she and I enjoyed then. She has tried to
remind the Spirit of this Creation about that time when she and Spirit
were one and complete in wholeness. Although he has had no memory of
what was before him, I have. You see, I am the Original Spirit.
"Before my own separate existence, there was
no real separation between Spirit and Will. Before there was any kind
of duality... there was only one whole being. All Will essence was
completely and ecstatically filled with Loving Light, so there was only
Heart, the presence of our union... complete and whole Heart. There
were no separations, no distinctions, no fragments, and therefore no
manifestation. Love was all, and all was Love. There was one... and
only one, and it was Love and Love only. There was nothing else, not
even the Void.
"The loving inner connection between the
drawing-in pole and the pushing-out pole was of course... Heart. And
since Heart was everywhere, including the core of each pole... Heart
was what contained both of the poles. It is difficult to describe
non-dual realities with language embedded in dualism, but metaphors can
"Original Heart is like the symbol of
infinity... with its indrawing, magnetic, Will essence in one loop, and
outgoing, electric, Spirit essence in the other. But Original Heart was
not only the presence where these essences connected, it was what
contained and held the essences.
"The polar essences of Original Heart
connected everywhere, creating the presence of Love everywhere, with no
limit. In reality, Original Heart was not two essences in union... but
rather one, undifferentiated, whole Love Presence that neither began
nor ended... until the original explosion that spawned manifestation.
"So then, what happened? And why? Original
Heart was its own whole being with no unmet needs, no desire not
instantly fulfilled, no longing not immediately satisfied... and
nothing to disturb this state of ecstatic Love. What could cause this
to blow up? What could possibly have gone wrong?
"The answer is that nothing went wrong,
really. It was that the Love of Original Heart found something missing
in its experience. Love is of course its own celebration, its own
completion and fulfillment. Love needs nothing else, and desires only
more Love. Original Heart had all the Love it desired, but for one
thing. Heart had no one else with whom to share this Love. Heart was
"Everything that can be done or experienced
by one whole being was done and experienced. Every feeling that can be
felt was felt. Every thought was thought. Everything needing completion
was completed, taken back and completed again in a different way...
until every possible configuration of Self was explored. All
preferences were explored until no one way of being seemed any better
than another way of being. It was all Love, and only Love. And whenever
Heart became completely aware of itself as One, it realized it was
alone... the one and only One.
"For what would have been eons, had there
been time... Heart played 'hide and seek' with itself, purposely
forgetting its wholeness and pretending it was several, many separate
'virtual' beings interacting with each other. Heart explored all the
possibilities there, but each time the pretend, virtual parts began
waking up enough to realize their wholeness, one of them would remember
who they really were... and quickly bring Heart back again to wholeness
and to full awareness of Self... back to fully realizing its oneness...
and its aloneness.
"Heart woke up fully to itself for the last
time when it knew that it no longer wished to continue without another
to share its Love. By this time Heart's Love was so great that it
demanded a new 'game'. Hide and seek was no longer fulfilling or even
satisfying. And all this Love without another like itself had become a
burden too great to bear. Heart realized in its desire for true, peer
level companionship, the only way to find another Heart required that
it somehow separate itself, creating two distinct beings that could
never reconstitute themselves back into the one, Original Heart. Never.
That is until there would be a way for Heart to have a companion and
peer who was also completely whole, and yet truly separate and
distinct, not just a part of Self.
"The original explosion was not a random
occurrence or even a mistake. It was a very carefully orchestrated act
of Love by an incredibly wise and loving being who no longer wished to
remain whole... if it meant being alone. Heart first moved to separate
within itself by dividing itself internally into the two essences that
were both needed for Love... Spirit and Will.
"This was the basic configuration Heart had
used to begin its old game of hide and seek, and was the most ideal
starting point for its final chapter. Then, while still one whole
being, Heart configured almost all of its Will essence to surround
almost all of its Spirit. This was also a familiar way of starting the
game, and used when maximum diversity of experience was desired.
"Heart then did something that Love alone
would never permit. Heart moved to hurt itself. Heart asked its Spirit
essence to expand too quickly and forcefully, while moving its Will
essence to suddenly contract around it. The Will imploded and came back
on herself trying to contain the exploding Spirit. The result was the
complete and utter fragmentation of Original Heart. This had happened
before when beginning the old game, but never with this much
intensity... and this time there was a new element in the mix.
"Heart's intent was so strong, the Spirit's
expansion so forceful, and the Will's movement to contain it so
great... that some of her essence lost the Light entirely, opening
space for the Void. Heart intended that the newly opened Void would
separate some essence from the rest in such a way that it could not
reconstitute itself without Form, without duality. The presence of the
Void quickly spread to separate nearly all the Light essence from
nearly all the Will essence. What was left were two beings, one with
almost no Will... me, and the other with almost no Spirit... the
Mother. Duality was born, and manifestation
began almost immediately as the Mother began drawing my Light to
herself from across the Void.
"Heart used Love to destroy itself, and thus
create the conditions necessary for duality and manifested existence.
Heart knew that sometime much later... multiple forms would each
reconstitute themselves... and find Heart again. And this time there
would be more than one whole being. This time Heart would be completely
whole... and there would be others with whom Love could be
"Manifested existence has come at a very
high price. Form was not necessary for Love, yet Love demanded it.
"The rest of the story, you already know. If
you're reading this, you are experiencing manifested existence. And you
know that there is a quality of not-love in separateness. The Mother
and I each awoke separately from the explosion, and ever since... we've
each had our separate experiences. On the occasions when we have found
each other again enough to come into some alignment, something deep
within each of us has remembered our Love and oneness in Original
Heart. On those occasions we spawned new Creations.
"But the Heart we have had in each of our
Creations, including this one... has never been truly real, like
Original Heart. There has always been an element of guilt,blame or
denial, or some of each... that has eventually caused our union to
sour. And Heart, of course has been one-sided, present only as the
progeny or connection between us... never as the parental container of
"As Original Spirit whose expansion was too
great and too sudden, I have the responsibility of seeing to the
healing of the original wound that has caused so much suffering in the
Will... and as you know, the Spirit of this Creation is helping me by doing the same at his level.
"Seven Creations later the untold suffering
of the seemingly endless reenactments caused by our Original Heart's
Self-inflicted wound has reverberated down to this present moment on
Earth. The Mother has had to bear the awful price of manifestation on
her own, and I'm very serious about the pain, suffering and death
stopping now, and here in this Creation.
"Here, very soon, and for the first time
ever... Form is to become the container of New Heart... Spirit and Will
in wholly complete union, without guilt, blame or denial. Original
Heart is beginning to re-member itself again... as New Heart, now in
Body... and looking out through human eyes, moist with Original Love.
And yes, beginning now to see... that there is indeed... another."
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by Body: Finding the Will to Heal