"This is Original
Spirit,
and I wish to say some things to
introduce this class. I'll begin by thanking the
Spirit of this
Creation for helping bring me here. And of course I
am deeply
indebted to the Mother for her persistence in
drawing me forth into
this Creation. Thank you again, my love.
"The Mother has recently recovered
enough of
her parental essence in this Creation to remember
back before the original
explosion, to the wondrous
state of complete union that she and I enjoyed then.
She has tried to
remind the Spirit of this Creation about that time
when she and Spirit
were one and complete in wholeness. Although he has
had no memory of
what was before him, I have. You see, I am the
Original Spirit.
"Before my own separate existence,
there was
no real separation between Spirit and Will. Before
there was any kind
of duality... there was only one whole being. All
Will essence was
completely and ecstatically filled with Loving
Light, so there was only
Heart, the presence of our union... complete and
whole Heart. There
were no separations, no distinctions, no fragments,
and therefore no
manifestation. Love was all, and all was Love. There
was one... and
only one, and it was Love and Love only. There was
nothing else, not
even the Void.
"The loving inner connection between
the
drawing-in pole and the pushing-out pole was of
course... Heart. And
since Heart was everywhere, including the core of
each pole... Heart
was what contained both of the poles. It is
difficult to describe
non-dual realities with language embedded in
dualism, but metaphors can
help.
"Original Heart is like the symbol of
infinity... with its indrawing, magnetic, Will
essence in one loop, and
outgoing, electric, Spirit essence in the other. But
Original Heart was
not only the presence where these essences
connected, it was what
contained and held the essences.
"The polar essences of Original Heart
connected everywhere, creating the presence of Love
everywhere, with no
limit. In reality, Original Heart was not two
essences in union... but
rather one, undifferentiated, whole Love Presence
that neither began
nor ended... until the original explosion that
spawned manifestation.
"So then, what happened? And why?
Original
Heart was its own whole being with no unmet needs,
no desire not
instantly fulfilled, no longing not immediately
satisfied... and
nothing to disturb this state of ecstatic Love. What
could cause this
to blow up? What could possibly have gone wrong?
"The answer is that nothing went
wrong,
really. It was that the Love of Original Heart found
something missing
in its experience. Love is of course its own
celebration, its own
completion and fulfillment. Love needs nothing else,
and desires only
more Love. Original Heart had all the Love it
desired, but for one
thing. Heart had no one else with whom to share this
Love. Heart was
alone.
"Everything that can be done or
experienced
by one whole being was done and experienced. Every
feeling that can be
felt was felt. Every thought was thought. Everything
needing completion
was completed, taken back and completed again in a
different way...
until every possible configuration of Self was
explored. All
preferences were explored until no one way of being
seemed any better
than another way of being. It was all Love, and only
Love. And whenever
Heart became completely aware of itself as One, it
realized it was
alone... the one and only One.
"For what would have been eons, had
there
been time... Heart played 'hide and seek' with
itself, purposely
forgetting its wholeness and pretending it was
several, many separate
'virtual' beings interacting with each other. Heart
explored all the
possibilities there, but each time the pretend,
virtual parts began
waking up enough to realize their wholeness, one of
them would remember
who they really were... and quickly bring Heart back
again to wholeness
and to full awareness of Self... back to fully
realizing its oneness...
and its aloneness.
"Heart woke up fully to itself for
the last
time when it knew that it no longer wished to
continue without another
to share its Love. By this time Heart's Love was so
great that it
demanded a new 'game'. Hide and seek was no longer
fulfilling or even
satisfying. And all this Love without another like
itself had become a
burden too great to bear. Heart realized in its
desire for true, peer
level companionship, the only way to find another
Heart required that
it somehow separate itself, creating two distinct
beings that could
never reconstitute themselves back into the one,
Original Heart. Never.
That is until there would be a way for Heart to have
a companion and
peer who was also completely whole, and yet truly
separate and
distinct, not just a part of Self.
"The original explosion was not a
random
occurrence or even a mistake. It was a very
carefully orchestrated act
of Love by an incredibly wise and loving being who
no longer wished to
remain whole... if it meant being alone. Heart first
moved to separate
within itself by dividing itself internally into the
two essences that
were both needed for Love... Spirit and Will.
"This was the basic configuration
Heart had
used to begin its old game of hide and seek, and was
the most ideal
starting point for its final chapter. Then, while
still one whole
being, Heart configured almost all of its Will
essence to surround
almost all of its Spirit. This was also a familiar
way of starting the
game, and used when maximum diversity of experience
was desired.
The Explosion
"Heart then did something that Love
alone
would never permit. Heart moved to hurt itself.
Heart asked its Spirit
essence to expand too quickly and forcefully, while
moving its Will
essence to suddenly contract around it. The Will
imploded and came back
on herself trying to contain the exploding Spirit.
The result was the
complete and utter fragmentation of Original Heart.
This had happened
before when beginning the old game, but never with
this much
intensity... and this time there was a new element
in the mix.
"Heart's intent was so strong, the
Spirit's
expansion so forceful, and the Will's movement to
contain it so
great... that some of her essence lost the Light
entirely, opening
space for the Void. Heart intended that the newly
opened Void would
separate some essence from the rest in such a way
that it could not
reconstitute itself without Form, without duality.
The presence of the
Void quickly spread to separate nearly all the Light
essence from
nearly all the Will essence. What was left were two
beings, one with
almost no Will... me, and the other with almost no
Spirit... the
Mother. Duality was born, and manifestation
began almost immediately as the Mother began
drawing my Light to
herself from across the Void.
"Heart used Love to destroy itself,
and thus
create the conditions necessary for duality and
manifested existence.
Heart knew that sometime much later... multiple
forms would each
reconstitute themselves... and find Heart again. And
this time there
would be more than one whole being. This time Heart
would be completely
whole... and there would be others with whom
Love could be
wholly shared.
"Manifested existence has come at a
very
high price. Form was not necessary for Love, yet
Love demanded it.
"The rest of the story, you already
know. If
you're reading this, you are experiencing manifested
existence. And you
know that there is a quality of not-love in
separateness. The Mother
and I each awoke separately from the explosion, and
ever since... we've
each had our separate experiences. On the occasions
when we have found
each other again enough to come into some alignment,
something deep
within each of us has remembered our Love and
oneness in Original
Heart. On those occasions we spawned new Creations.
"But the Heart we have had in each of
our
Creations, including this one... has never been
truly real, like
Original Heart. There has always been an element of
guilt,blame or
denial, or some of each... that has eventually
caused our union to
sour. And Heart, of course has been one-sided,
present only as the
progeny or connection between us... never as the
parental container of
us.
"As Original Spirit whose expansion
was too
great and too sudden, I have the responsibility of
seeing to the
healing of the original wound that has caused so
much suffering in the
Will... and as you know, the Spirit of this Creation
is helping me by doing the
same at his level.
"Seven Creations later the untold
suffering
of the seemingly endless reenactments caused by our
Original Heart's
Self-inflicted wound has reverberated down to this
present moment on
Earth. The Mother has had to bear the awful price of
manifestation on
her own, and I'm very serious about the pain,
suffering and death
stopping now, and here in this Creation.
"Here, very soon, and for the first
time
ever... Form is to become the container of New
Heart... Spirit and Will
in wholly complete union, without guilt, blame or
denial. Original
Heart is beginning to re-member itself again... as
New Heart, now in
Body... and looking out through human eyes, moist
with Original Love.
And yes, beginning now to see... that there is
indeed... another."
Next: Introduction
by
Spirit: Identity
Introduction
by Body: Finding the Will to Heal