Healing Class - Lesson Three
Reclaiming Lost Spirit
Part Eight: The God of Love
and the god of Power
Return to Part Seven: Grandfather
- "This is Heart,
and I have some things to say about Spirit from
where I live. Ever since my emergence I have had
much confusion about 'God' and I can feel how
the Mother has often been confused as well.
Spirit has sometimes seemed loving, sometimes
distant, sometimes hurtful. Hard to predict.
- "Since early in my
understandings, I've known that Lucifer was the
denied part of God who had been attacking the
Mother, using her, twisting her and forcing
himself on her. But the rest of Spirit wasn't
always there for her either. He often seemed to
flee or keep his distance when she was in
- "But lately my confusion about
this has been lifting. I'm beginning to realize
what's been making it seem to the Mother and me
like God is two-faced. The confusion has been
understandable because there actually have been
TWO Gods. And they have long been at odds with
- "Deeper than the level of form
and duality has always been a single Spirit who
is Love. Since Manifestation, however, the One Spirit, the Spirit of Love
had long ago denied himself. This caused a
'shadow' to emerge, a part of himself of whom he
- "The shadow of Love is Power.
Love first gave much of his Power to Lucifer. And
in doing so, he become Ahriman.
As Ahriman, Spirit then used what was left of
his power to oppose Lucifer, for the 'good' of
- "Love, real Love feels much
better than Power... yet most humans have chosen
to worship Ahriman, the god of Power and have
not often felt or seen the God of Love. Praised
from the pulpits and beseeched in the deepest
prayers for relief from pain and oppression by
Lucifer, the god of Power has been very popular.
- "Power has constantly affirmed
that he and only he is God. And he has been very
successful at this... many Beings have never
even known that the God of Love exists.
- "And for a while there... he
Guilt is not Love
"Although rarely having the power
to actually do it, the God of Love has always
known that Loving Light's highest purpose is in
the service of Desire, in the service of the
Mother. There once was also great Power in his
Love, but the power caused him guilt.
- "Long ago the God of Love denied
his Power. He sensed that Power was unloving. He
felt guilty that his Power could sometimes be
limiting to others... so he relinquished nearly
all of it. He denied his power because he
believed what guilt had told him.
- "Now he knows what I have always
known... that guilt's voice lies, that the voice
of guilt is not the voice of real Love. And the
God of Love knows now that his guilt was the
result of not measuring up to a predetermined
standard or ideal.
- "Loving Light had held for
himself the standard of perfection, and then he
judged that he was
'wrong' whenever he failed to meet
perfection's test. Now he knows that ideals and even
perfection itself... are part of what has been
- "And he now knows that the lie
of guilt is in the assumption that the standards
he judged himself against were 'right.'
Perfection and other ideals do not evolve. Yet
Creation and Deity by their very nature are ever
moving and changing, becoming more of what they
- "Real Love does not desire
perfection or anything else beyond simply what
is. With Real Love it is only the beloved
herself that is desired... just exactly as
she is in the moment. Imperfections,
warts, and all. This is why Desire will always
choose Love over Power—when she truly has a
- "But the god of Power had
assumed supremacy over Love because Desire had
no choice. When she sought Light, she had to
choose Power because so many times Love was
nowhere to be found, or seemed too weak to be of
any help. And so many times Power offered her
what she felt she needed most—protection from
what she feared.
- "But now there is a choice,
because now Loving Light, Loving Spirit is
becoming easier to find. And he's trying to make
himself even easier. Here in the middle, I know
this is true—I can feel it happening more and
- "The way to know that the Light
is truly loving, however, was not immediately
obvious to me. My first step in finding the
Light of Loving God was to understand the
differences in these two ways of Spirit—Love and
Power. Love loves to serve Desire, for
their mutual pleasure. And Power loves to use
her... for more power.
- "The most obvious way you can
tell the difference is in their direction.
Loving God moves toward the suffering and pain
of tortured Desire, the Mother of Creation.
Empowering god moves away from her, or sometimes
tries to bring her along... toward more Light.
- "Loving God gathers up all the
Light he is...and moves toward the pain and
darkness of the Mother, his one true love. This
is my truly parental Spirit, this is the real
love of my true Father.
- "As more and more parental
Desire awakens from the original shock inflicted
exploding god of Power... more and more
Real Love comes into manifestation as the union
of Loving Light and Desire.
- "As the Mother's Desire and
Loving God's Light join here in Heart—Love is
- "Deep in the center of my
presence I know that Love, Real Love is complete
in itself. It requires nothing else. Only being
is necessary. Power, however, has always
required some kind of action, some kind of duty.
Loving God Loves the Mother's
- "Fear has been called
the opposite of Love, but it is not really.
Fear has, however often been an
enemy of Love...and the main reason that Desire
has felt she's had to choose Power.
- "Fearful Desire, terrified
Desire has sought Power so that she may be safe.
- "When she has opened, fearful
Desire has opened to completely unloving Light
at worst... Lucifer.
Lucifer's kind of denied Light moves toward
Desire with intention to hurt and abuse...
manipulate and disempower. But with a voice like
the voice of guilt, Lucifer's Light is easy to
distinguish. His energy feels bad to Desire or
makes her feel bad about herself. It is often
manipulative, and becomes demanding if thwarted.
- "And when she has opened to
light that has felt good... most often it's been
the light of Power, Ahriman. But empowering
Light has been only temporarily satisfying to
Desire, even to fearful Desire. Because the
light of Power ultimately uses her... for more
power of his own. With this light her fear never
moves, and her desire for power becomes like an
addiction that only he can satisfy... on his
- "But now something new is
happening. Recently the God of Love has been
vying with the god of Power for the attention of
- "Loving God, parental Spirit
without guilt knows that each wiggle and twitch
of Desire is beautiful... no matter what
unlovingness she may hold. And he loves her,
just as she is... with whatever she is holding.
- "Although now still 'weaker'
than Power, Loving God loves unconditionally all
expressions of manifestation, including fearful
Desire... even though she may still sometimes
- "Fear opening to Love is
something very new... but now that Love is
reclaiming its Power in Creation, Loving God is
available to her too. Now fearful Desire can
more easily move with Love—and find the
fulfillment and real healing she could never
find with Power alone.
- "Love is there for her now as
she begins to awaken from the long nightmare of
endless pain and terror."
New Life is Coming to the
"I am Heart, New Heart, the child
of Loving Light uniting with the Mother's
Desire... even fearful Desire. Especially fearful
Desire, for only in Real Love can the Mother's
deepest terror be truly accepted.
- "I was once like charcoal, a
burned out wasteland where Love never came into
manifestation... and every dream of Love was
eventually met with bitter reversal.
- "But now signs of new green life
are beginning to sprout among the charred
cinders of my devastation. Thanks to Loving
- "The God of Love has realized
his mistake. He knows now that he'd let guilt
tell him he should deny his Power... and his
denied power had then overcome him, pushing the
Loving Light away where Desire couldn't find it.
- "Now Loving God is cautiously
beginning to move toward the Mother and the pain
of her suffering, suffocating, burning Desire.
And his caution feels right to me, because
Loving Light doesn't push or demand... Real Love
makes itself available and asks nothing in
- "The god of Power is not his own
being. Even in all his power and glory, he is
only a lost part of Love. He is Love's denied
Power, the shadow of Love... lost Love.
- "But he has a role in the
healing of Heart and the full recovery of
Desire. The god of Power knows the way to much
of the Mother's pain and fear... and the God of
Love knows better than to deny him again.
is now beginning to own its Power.
As the God of Love accepts back
his previously denied Power, his Love reaches
deeper into manifestation. As Loving Light
reaches deeper... New Heart is born in the
wasteland of pain and anguish that was once the
womb of lost Desire.
- "More and more, the Spirit
essence in humans who
are doing the healing work is aligning
with the God of Love. More and more, the human
spirit of Love is finding its way to the
painfully tortured fragments of lost Desire...
in Body's human form.
- "More and more, those who are doing the
healing work are guiding their own spirits
away from the god of Power and aligning with the
God of Love. And more and more, Loving Light is
helping Desire's lost fragments awaken from the
shock she experienced long ago when the
exploding god of Power originally so forcefully
pushed her away from Love.
- "So take Heart, lost Desire.
Take Heart, my fearful and loving Mother. Your
way will be shown to be right... and your
dream will be realized. Your true
and right mate, the God of Love is ever more
ready and willing now to serve you and your
dream with his newly redeemed Power.
- "Mother, he is moving toward
your pain now. You will know it's him because he
won't push and he won't demand. So when you feel
ready, let me know and I'll help you let him
in... the God of Love."
Part Six: Superiority
& the Two Devils | Part
Five: Spirit and Superiority
Part Four: Redeeming the
Devils | Part Three: Death | Part Two: The
Part One: Ahriman | Lesson Two, Spirit Polarity | Lesson One, Quest
for the Mother
Lessons One & Two
Discussion | Lesson Three Discussion
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